First of all, I would like to thank the makers of the “Netfilx watch instantly on your Wii”  it is, without a doubt, the best game for the Wii console, and I do enjoy it more than I would a Wii Fit.

That being said, today started off rough. I know this blog is not supposed to be my journal, it’s supposed to be an outlet for my creativity, and it’s supposed to be a way to get people interested in my future business. I’ve read the part of my Indie Biz 2.0 class from LA, Elsie and Jill which told me to be positive and all that jazz, not to get my readers bummed. However, to know me and to really “connect” to what is Sincerely Rae, you have to know that being positive is a struggle for me. I’d like to think that I’m an optimist but I have to try, I have to try really hard.

For the name of my business and blog to be true, I have to be SINCERE. Which literally means to be: free of deceit, hypocrisy, or falseness; genuine; real; pure; unmixed; unadulterated. I have to tell you that this endeavor only stems out of the fact that I’ve been at very dark places in my life, I’ve been in holes that I couldn’t dig myself out of. Every effort that I put into this is because I don’t want to be in that hole again. It is through the grace and power of God that I am the person I am today and not a recluse or, worse, dead. I never want any other person to have to feel the way I felt. That’s why I want to show the world a certain light, even if it’s just a cutesy picture or a dress that’s reminiscent of another era. I don’t want my products or my writing to be dark, depressing or angry. The world has enough of that all on its own. If you need a reminder just turn on the news.

So today started off rough, I’m stressed about a lot of things; finals, trying to find time to start this business, finding a new job, and leaving the job I’m at. But when I really stop to look at it, I don’t have to be stressed. It doesn’t help anything. My husband will probably scoff when he reads this because he told me all of that this morning. I get overwhelmed and then I try to make myself the victim and that’s just a little bit ridiculous. I just need to be reminded and to remind myself that worrying about life doesn’t profit anything.

So the reason why I love Netflix and Its instant queue on my Wii is that I watched a movie this afternoon, after school, after random gardening, and while painting my nails these crazy yellow and orange patterns. It’s a documentary called Paper Heart it has Michael Cera and Charlyne Yi in it, this is the plot summery: Charlyne Yi embarks on a quest across America to make a documentary about the one subject she doesn’t fully understand: Love.

She interviews ministers, happily married couples, chemists, romance novelists, divorce lawyers, a whole Harley bar, and a group of children. The movie begins with her saying that she doesn’t believe in love and doesn’t end with her saying she believes in it, but it does make you think. It was amazing to me that the people with the most telling answers about love were the school children and the couples who had been married for a few decades. The school children never even questioned that love exists, that true love is achievable.The married couples said that love is achievable if you work hard enough, if you keep it alive, if you learn to be patient, and if you look past the faults.

This preview doesn’t really do the movie justice either. The movie itself is much more raw and real.

I wonder what would happen if everyone took the time to love a little more, not just romantically but in every form, to love the unlovable or to at least try…

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